I wanna say, "that's it. That's the post."
But I know I am called to offer more. So, here goes... I have been struggling with trusting that I am exactly where I am supposed to be, and the root of that struggle always comes back to my common denominator: Grief. This five letter word that is a deep requirement for me to live the life I have always dreamed of living...how beautifully dumb and annoying. The struggle is real for a few reasons... I am nearing the age my mom was when she transitioned... I am currently the same age as Vince when he transitioned... I am continually surpassing the age of so many people that I have outlived... It's a whole lot to stretch through. Why have I outlived so many people? But also, Why not me?! I deserve to be here; it's just hard when I feel like they do too... So much duality. Like, what makes me so special? AND DUH! OF COURSE IT'S ME. I have felt so chosen AND so alone. BUT GOD. BUT MOTHER NATURE. BUT GRACE. BUT LOVE. always finds a way to show up and show out FOR ME. BECAUSE I AM CHOSEN AND SET APART (you should really yell this; I promise you'll feel better when you do). whooo. is this a sermon? There are few things I know for certain, and plenty that I know for maybe, but one thing I do know...is that if you're still here; you're supposed to be. It's for some purpose bigger than whatever you may believe. There's so much science to explain every little thing that has to go correctly in your body for you to continue on living...I don't know all that science, but it's there as evidence for those of us that need more proof that our existence is so on purpose. We're here. We're STILL here. Even after it all... whatever your all is. I'm just so grateful you stayed for the tomorrow that was ahead. You are here; right where you're supposed to be.
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AuthorKorie Griggs is a writer who believes words are to be cherished and never wasted. She facilitates healing through the vulnerable storytelling of her life through creative expression. Archives
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